College Life

I hate it when you don't even have enough money to buy food because you need to pay rent and the rest of tuition which both exceed the amount you earn in a month :(

Tangy: Bitter Sweet

I love my Paden so much. I just wish i could have him here. I wish I could be safe in his arms and not have to worry about anything. I miss him so much. Im just glad its May already and I'll be sing him in a month. I cant wait. I just wish that I could see him and be with him now. Hear the sound of his voice, see the light in his beautiful green eyes, see his cute smile, hear the sound of his laughter, feel the strength in his arms as he hugs me close... Can't wait till June and then August when we'll get married. Im so excited to be marrying him. He's amazing and super cute in every way possible.

Reminiscing

Sometimes I miss how things used to be. I miss my Paden and having him here with me, I miss when we just had time to hang out, I miss the friends I used to have, I miss cookie parties at the compound with Cami and everyone. I miss my coworkers like Amber and Sam and Mari and everyone else thats gone, I miss my wonderful cousin/recent roomie Nicole, and so many more. But Im glad I got to meet so many amazing people that have all impacted my life greatly. Im grateful for the opportunity to be here in Hawaii and meet so many people from around the world. Life never stops changing. I guess that means the my friends will never stop changing either. I think God brings the people we need into our lives at specific times to teach us something, even if it is something small, and then has them move on to teach and touch someone else life. It pretty amazing but sometimes I wish it would just stop. But it all makes me even more grateful for my amazing fiance who wont leave or move on. He's gunna be with me for eternity :)

All You Need is Love

I love my fiance. He's amazing. I'm so grateful that I have him. Sometimes we do have rough patches and awkward moods but he really is the love of my life :)

Frustrating

Its annoying when people try and tell you what you do everyday when they dont even know! Really its a pet peeve of mine. People trying to tell others what they do & dont do when they have no clue. Its annoying when roomates say, "All you do is spend time with your fiance & go to school" I wish that was the case but unfortunately I dont get to spend ANY of my time with my fiance!!!! All I do all day is go to school, go to work, & then do homework. The most time I get to spend with my fiance is like 20minutes between class & then when he walks me home after work or school. Thats it! It makes me so mad when people try and tell me otherwise. Im not even home at all!! How are they going to tell me what I do when Im not at home?! Frustrating! Then I have another roomie, who although is super nice, is dirty minded & (the biggy) She eats everyone else's food & uses everyone elses stuff! Sometimes she doesnt even ask. She has her own bathroom but she uses mine & Nicoles all the time. Then she took my hydrogen peroxide without asking and never returned it! I went into her bathroom today & found my bottle & another one! Then whenever my fiance comes over, shes always dressed inappropriately and it makes me uncomfortable & it makes him uncomfortable. Its just bad timing & an accident but it always happens. I dont even want him over at my house anymore because of her & my other roomates who dont know how to dress themselves. Cant wait till im married and dont have to deal with any other roomates but the love of my life!

Downside

The only downside is, I work till 9:30!!!! and the Ball gets over at 11:30 :( So ima bring all my stuff to work & then try & get off a little early so i can get ready in the bathroom :) Hopefully itll only take like 15 minutes. I already have my hair almost done. After work ill just apply a little makeup, throw on my dress & accessories, fix my hair & wallah!! :D hopefully it works! lol

First Term Ball!!!

Im sooo excited for the Ball tonight!!!! Im so happy that Sam asked me :) Hes soo adorable!!! Hes a real sweetheart and really cute :) Hes a good guy :) which makes me happy! No one...let me rephrase, no guy has ever asked me to like anything! When ever i went on dates, I initiated it or asked the guy & once my friend told her brother that i wanted him to ask me to LDS Prom & he still wouldnt! He didnt believe her! So i had to ask him & then he said yes. Ive had guys ask, do you wanna go eat at kahuku grill or wanna watch a movie with me but they were all approached kinda like hanging out almost. This is like the first time a guy has straight out asked "Do you want to go to the Ball with me?" It makes me happy! :D