Journal Entery

Date: July 19, 2007

Entery Number: 15

Page/Quote reflecting on: Pgs. 63-65

It's so sad and amazing. Okonkwo actually feels. It's sad though because he's grieving over Ikemefuna. Ikemefuna must have ment a lot more than he actually let on. He drank palm wine for two days and didn't eat anything else for those two days. When he wanted Nwoye to sit with him he would but he was afraid of Okonkwo now and would slip out when Okonkwo fell asleep. He tried not to think about Ikemefuna and occupy his mind with something else, but the harder he tried the more he thought about him. Finally on the third day after Ikemefuna's death, Okonkwo had his second wife prepare food and Ezinma took it in to him. After he ate his food, absent mindedly, he then proceeded to do his little snuff drugs. Okonkwo was just totally out of it and a major reck. He tried to justify it a little with the season of rest because if it wasn't that season he would be working and he would be able to forget about it easilier. That in turn brought up a memory of Ikemefuna. He tries to shake himself out of it by calling himself a woman and remebering how he had killed many in war and never had a problem before and then he decided to get out of the house and go visit Obierika. Poor Okonkwo. He's never really had that problem before. I wonder what would happen if Ezinma got sick and died. He shouldn't have gone with to kill him. The other men wouldn't have thought him weak. He worries way to much of what others might think. Okonkwo actually kind of brought that grief upon himself. If he hadn't gone to kill Ikemefuna with the other men then he wouldn't be in that state. He might be sad still but not like how he is. But it is nice to now that he really does feel and more than just anger and fear and wanting to be better than his father. That must have been a site for his family to behold. Okonkwo really cared about Ikemefuna. He really loved him as a son. He should not have worried about looking weak and just stayed home. He had done so much already for Umuofia that no one would have thought him as weak if he had stayed home. It was a sad tragedy that could not have be prevented by anyone living by Igbo law.