Tangy: Bitter Sweet

I love my Paden so much. I just wish i could have him here. I wish I could be safe in his arms and not have to worry about anything. I miss him so much. Im just glad its May already and I'll be sing him in a month. I cant wait. I just wish that I could see him and be with him now. Hear the sound of his voice, see the light in his beautiful green eyes, see his cute smile, hear the sound of his laughter, feel the strength in his arms as he hugs me close... Can't wait till June and then August when we'll get married. Im so excited to be marrying him. He's amazing and super cute in every way possible.

Reminiscing

Sometimes I miss how things used to be. I miss my Paden and having him here with me, I miss when we just had time to hang out, I miss the friends I used to have, I miss cookie parties at the compound with Cami and everyone. I miss my coworkers like Amber and Sam and Mari and everyone else thats gone, I miss my wonderful cousin/recent roomie Nicole, and so many more. But Im glad I got to meet so many amazing people that have all impacted my life greatly. Im grateful for the opportunity to be here in Hawaii and meet so many people from around the world. Life never stops changing. I guess that means the my friends will never stop changing either. I think God brings the people we need into our lives at specific times to teach us something, even if it is something small, and then has them move on to teach and touch someone else life. It pretty amazing but sometimes I wish it would just stop. But it all makes me even more grateful for my amazing fiance who wont leave or move on. He's gunna be with me for eternity :)